If it was meant to be in this song, I'll play for you.

daddy's little girl

Friday, January 21, 2011 at 10:18 PM

oh god.. i've never been happier to seen that rusted old orange gate which i have walked through for 11 years..

i've never been happier to see my 90 year old grandma in her blue slippers walking around the house..

i've never been happier to see my cambodia maid who doesn't see english..

i've never been happier to see my little brother and sister singing "puppies and monkey" all day long..

i've never been happier....to see my lovely parent's smile..as they welcomed me back into.. The House..

i know it has only been a week but i miss home like shit already :( guess my heart will always be in melaka

i mean think about it.. what's so nice..about eating expensive food..which taste normal to you every single day..and you have to pay for it?

what's so nice about letting ur parents worried every single day and get a heart attack everytime we tell them we're out?

what's so nice about taking a runaway cab that brings you around kl to cheat your money?

what's so nice about leaving your family and freedom? well duh..you'll definitely enjoy freedom for awhile.. but after that.. you'll feel like your family isn't looking out for you.. and you're suppose to make all your decisions by yourself now..

i never thought i'll EVER sound like that..seriously..

i always wanted to show my family that i can be independent if i want too..

well there.. i'll prove myself right.. what now?

gosh.. i miss melaka T_T

don't get me wrong..

i love taylors..

it's just that i miss staying with my family and friends :(

i miss everyone a hell load..

and yeah.. the ppl at taylors are awesome.. and extreamely friendly i must point out..

but it's just different..

i never danced in the rain with these guys..

i never sang in classes with them to annoy the teacher..

we never had the last-minute-homework-rush thing together every morning..

we never shared the same secrets like we did the last time..

we never freaked out while playing balls..

yeah..i know.. it's only the first week.. GAHH~!!!

and now..i'm in my comfy bedroom.. typing this post..

the familiar cherry smell of the bedroom has never failed calmed me down..

looking around..i have so many memories in this room..

this was where i used to cry alone..when i thought my friends weren't there for me..

some of you have even been half-naked here before..

in form 1.. elena and i were practicing never had a dream come true in this exact spot..

this was where ben put on the blonde wig to make me smile..

this was where michelle lim had a sleepover and we went on omegle and pretended to be britney spears..

this was where fang fang and i were being so damn gan chong for gacc..

i miss all of you guys and i hope i can kidnap all of you up to kl T_T

and yeah..staying with leah is nice~!! she is my 2nd mother :D

HO SHU PING

ANDREA MARIE KARL

DING YEN VERN

ELENA CHO

YAP SIEW HUI

JANINE TAN

JIA LING

TAN CHEW FANG

NUR FARAH DIYANAH

BENJAMIN YONG

NEVER FORGET ME..OR I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU..

ps i am happily typing this with tears in my eyes [for god knows why] in my lovely pink bedroom on a queen sized bed :D

I'll play for you.