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Sunday, December 27, 2009 at 8:52 PM

you are such a fucking asshole you know that?
say all those things and never mean them..
do u know how long i have tolerated you?
i cant stand it anymore..
i'm about to explode..
i dont even know if i could trust u anymore..
last time we were the closest of friends..
i dont know about it anymore..
please stop being oh i'm so sorry in front of me..
i cant take it..
its fake + bitchy..
and it makes me want to give you a good spanking..
please fuck off..
i'm sick and tired of you..
everytime i see you i feel so stress..
you treat me like i'm a person without feelings..
do u want me to treat you like that?
i cant stop you from doing what you want but can you at least open your eyes and see that i dont like it?
use ur brains la idiot..
i dont know if u mean what u are doing or not..
i cant tell..
but i seriously fucking hate it..
please stop whatever you are doing if u still want me to be your friend..

I'll play for you.


korea here i come!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 at 3:16 PM

i'm leaving for korea at 12 am tomorrow~
and i'm coming back on christmas eve~~
will update when i get back ^^
see you!!
and oh yeah.. just in case i didnt get the chance..


HOHOHO! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

I'll play for you.


random survey~
at 3:05 PM

Do you like the same person you liked a month ago?
I like a lot of people.

Have you ever slept on the floor with someone you liked?
hmm...yeah, my family and my friends ^^

Will you be in relationship in the next couple of months?
how would i know? when it comes, it comes~

.Do you think the person you like is nice?
Yes? I don't know I have a lot of people in my head. They're all nice to me so yes.

Who was the last person to say " i love you " to you ?
HAH not telling! BLUEK!! =p

Are you texting anybody?
yup

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?
Boy..GODDAMNIT..

Do you curse in front of your parents?
i would be slaughtered and fed to my dog

Who pissed you off yesterday?
everyone who talked to me about bras...i've been thinking bout bras the whole day..thanks a lot guys...

Hold hands with anyone recently?
Yes! I smiled as I typed this God I'm such a girl.

Have you ever felt replaced in any way?
All the time. We're dealing with guys here, not exactly the most sensitive creatures on earth.[sorry =P]

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
Open. Hence I'm publishing this.

Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
3? Seriously?

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
yes, but what i think about is for me to know and for you to never find out..

What were you doing at 4 am?
sleeping...hey, what can a "good" girl like me do at 4 am anyway?

How long can you go without your phone?
I WILL DIE OMG ARE YOU KIDDING DON'T EVER TAKE MY PHONE AWAY FROM ME. EVER.

Are you happy right now?
BLAH~. Was. But now. Like ...... MEH. Why? Refer to "who pissed you off" question.

Who were you with last night?
can't remember, i was drunk.

Are you a forgiving person?
There can be two extremes. One, I forgive easily. Two, oh boy piss me off and SUFFER.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?
i would bite it bout before anything starts..

Are you thinking about anyone?
hmm...my dog?

Person you have feelings for shows up at your house, you say?
umm...be in a wtf mode for a few seconds and freak out~

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
None.

Do you ever think about the past?
not much, but yeah~

Last night you felt?
tired?

What are you looking forward to?
GOING TO KOREA!!! XD

I'll play for you.


haiz~
Sunday, December 13, 2009 at 4:11 PM

cry till i die...
see this T___T

BEFORE


AFTER

T_______________T
this wig make my whole day no mood d...
my brother lent it for a sketch in kl...
and he didnt know how to take care of it so...
WAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T//////////////////////T
he freaking just stuff the thing in the bag you know? T.T
haiz..
fang fang darling~ can help me do treatment? please T>>T
i really want die d T__T

I'll play for you.


the way i loved you
at 2:00 AM

yes, i'm mad,
i got up at 2.00am to post this song XD
oh well~~
i'm bored ==
note : the songs i post always have to do with the way i'm feeling right now ^^

The way i loved you-taylor swift..


He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better

He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says, you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space and never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm fakin'
And my heart's not breakin'
'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all

And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated
Got away by some mistake and now

I'll be screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

And that's the way I loved you
I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
p.s : jia ling!!! teach me how to play jump then fall and untouchable on the guitar >.< !!!!!

I'll play for you.


freaky ==
Saturday, December 12, 2009 at 6:18 PM

i hear...
the clock ticking...
the sound of birds chirping..
the dripping of the tap...
and the air con...

*WHOOOOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!*

STUPID WIND...
SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME...
i was alone at home today and i thought i heard a ghost ==
and i screamed =.="""
ok, going back to sleep ^^

p.s: I'M THE MOST SESATED PERSON EVER WHO HASN'T WATCH TWILIGHT!!! EDWARD, WAIT FOR ME!!!!!!!!

*edit*
i meant new moon ==

I'll play for you.


不是每一句“对不起”,都能换来一句“没关系”。
Friday, December 11, 2009 at 12:08 PM


不是每一句“对不起”,都能换来一句“没关系”。

男孩和女孩从小就认识,男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾,每次男孩总是满载而归,女孩却是两手空空,女孩总是失落的含着眼泪,独自一个人回到家,然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前,男孩敲响女孩家的门,女孩一见是男孩,扭头就走,男孩追上前,对女孩说:“对不起,我把你的虾都捉走了,给,我把它们养在小鱼缸里,送给你。”女孩眉头一放,慧心的笑了,就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年,转眼,他们各自成长着。
——纯纯“对不起”



男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩,经常会把女孩逗到哭,然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止,直到长大后,也是如此。 男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有,然后躲在远处,看女孩着急的走投无路,等着女孩拨通他的手机,然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩,依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来,灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车,任由女孩在一旁发牢骚,男孩却暗自窃喜,然后委屈的对女孩说:“对不起,我知道错了。”随即,女孩便会柔弱下来,告诉男孩下次不允许那样,男孩点头,于是,那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
—— “对不起”快乐



大学毕业后,男孩和女孩各自有了工作,男孩的工作总是很忙,有时一个月都休息不到一次,而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她,终于,他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来,可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩:“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于,女孩还是忍不住,主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交,可每次,都是女孩先妥协。 那年,女孩生日,男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日,女孩欣喜不已,她在家精心打扮,等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日,这一等就是凌晨,女孩在睡梦中醒来,脸上挂着泪痕,男孩见到女孩,心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕:“对不起,嫁给我好吗?” 于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
—— “对不起”也是一种承诺



婚后,男孩的事业大有成就,经常有许多应酬,而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了,每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭,把家里收拾的干干净净,她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着,男孩总问他为什么,女孩却总是慧心的一笑。 慢慢的,男孩每次回家,身上总是充满了不同的香水味道,而每次没等女孩问,男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然,那时起,女孩不太爱说话了,也不像以前那么开朗了,她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里,抱着枕头看韩剧,然后随着剧情哭泣,夜深时,就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里,男孩回来时,身上的香水味只有一种味道了,女孩从来不问,可是男孩依旧说:“对不起,今天又去应酬了。
”—— “对不起”,谎言的开始。



渐渐的,男孩开始不回家,或总是在外出差,男孩的事业越来越好,身边都是奉承的人,他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着,而女孩,几乎不出门了,她总会去超市买上很多方便面,和一些必要的日用品,然后把自己关在家里,这一呆就是很久。从前,女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天,而现在,她孤身一人,身边没有一个可以说话的人,每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家,男孩总是仓促的回答到:“对不起,我太忙了。”女孩,失落的扣上电话,那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
—— “对不起”,只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子,开始打扮自己,她觉得男孩不回家,也许是看腻了她,她决定不再颓废,自己的幸福应该靠自己争取,而不是无谓的后退。 那天,女孩心血来潮,按照地址去了男孩工作的地方,那是女孩第一次去,也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯,来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方,她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落,这里的一切,她都觉得很好看。终于,绕过长长的办公走廊,她来到男孩的办公室,轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了,眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫,也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子,更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩,而是一个正在和别的女人发生关系的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上,******的发出微弱的呻吟声,那个男人,仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽…… 许久,男孩才发现了女孩,男孩惊慌失措,忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩,转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去,追着女孩,那晚,大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊,径直往前跑,往回家的方向跑,男孩在女孩后面大喊:“对不起,我还是爱你的,对不起,我真的只爱你。”可女孩,始终没有听见。
—— 这样的“对不起”伤人



男孩一直都没有找到女孩,女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗,无心工作,无心花天酒地,他想不到女孩可以去哪里,因为女孩没有朋友,她唯一的朋友就是男孩,男孩终日守着电话机,手机24小时不关机,怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。 快递为男孩送来一个盒子。 男孩打开一看,里面是许多河虾的标本,有的在树叶边休息,有的在水草里躲着,各式各样的河虾标本,旁边放着一封信。 “ 我始终没有勇气再见到你,可能是我太懦弱,也或许是我根本不想见到你,我想这些『警告:注意文明用语!』应该过的没什么两样吧,我很好,我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活,我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己,而不用每天等着你回家,为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜,直到凉了也不见你的人,我的手机已经不用了,因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机,让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己,珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想,我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的,因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。 离婚协议书,就压在鱼缸的底下,你签完字,按照地址给我寄过来就行了。 对不起,我想我是真的累了。” 男孩按照地址找去,他满心希望能够见到女孩,然后让女孩原谅,并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她,可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲,而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。 女孩的父亲告诉男孩,女孩在写完这封信后,跳楼自杀了,血肉一片模糊。
—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束



那一年,男孩疯了。每个人在自己的生命里头,一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人,不是每一句的对不起,都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人,那对谁,都不好……把这个故事传下去,让你的朋友们知道,不要随意地说出对不起......多陪陪该珍惜的。生命诚可贵,有情价更高。

I'll play for you.


tell me why-taylor swift
at 11:51 AM

love the lyrics >.< !! and to alice- TAYLOR SWIFT ROCKS!!!
Tell Me Why-Taylor Swift

I took a chance
I took a shot
And you might think I’m bulletproof
But I’m not

You took a swing
I took it hard
And down here from the ground I see who you are

I’m sick and tired of your attitude
I’m feeling like I don’t know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you’re around

And here’s to you and your temper
Yes I remember what you said last night
and I know that you see what you’re doing to me
Tell me why

You could write a book on how to ruin someone’s perfect day yeayea yeaah
Well I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what i’m trying to say, oh

I’m sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
you tell me that you want me, then push me around

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you’re around

Here’s to you and your temper
Yes I remember what you said last night
and I know that you see what you’re doing to me
Tell Me Why

Why ah ah
Do you have to make me feel small
so you can feel whole inside

Why … do you have to put down my dreams
so you’re the only thing on my mind

I’m sick and tired of your attitude
I’m feeling like i don’t know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down

I’m sick and tired of your reasons
I’ve got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around

Here’s to you and your temper
Yes I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you’re doing to meTell Me Why
WhyTell Me Why

I take a step back, let you go
I told you I’m not bulletproof
Now you know

I'll play for you.


presents
Thursday, December 10, 2009 at 5:59 PM

remember the last time i said i love shopping?
changed my mind...
when i'm shopping for presents...
its like....i can feel my 2 people talking to me ==
example..

A : hmm...this looks nice
B : no!! she/he/they wouldn't like it..
A : you wouldn't know if u didnt buy it..
B : i know her/him/them well enough to know that they wouldn't like it..
A : its the thought that counts!!
B : *sacarstic tone* if you say so~

=.="" wtf, ive gone mad ==

this are the problems you face when you buy presents..

1. you donno what they want

2. you donno where to get it [since i live in malaysia, choises are pretty limited]

3. after buying the present you donno if they would like it or not...
so, JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS PEOPLE BEFORE MY BRAIN EXPLODES!!!

p.s. taylor swift platinum album!! =P

I'll play for you.


christmas~
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 at 5:35 PM

last christmas i gave you my heart,
but the very next day, u take it away~
this year, to save me from tears,
i give it to someone special~~


christmas is just around the corner..
and everyone keep asking me...
what do you want for christmas?
i really have no idea ==
i want impossible stuff i know i can never have..
for example,


i want my freaking confidence back..
what happened to all my confidence? i missed it T__T


and also, i wish for my old attitude to be back too..
the "Hate me? thats your problem so fuck off" attitude..
guess i just care way to much now...


i wish to spend christmas we my friends [dont think i'm in melaka through ==]


i wish for things to be simple..
not as complicated..


i wish i could turn back time and start over..
as through nothing had happened..


i wish....
how i wish...
*censor censor toot toot!!*


i know i haven't been a really good girl this year santa...
but please just grant my wish..
pretty please?

I'll play for you.


miss you livia!!
Saturday, December 5, 2009 at 5:13 PM

3rd dec 2009...
a date worth remembering...
why?













OUR DARLING LIVIA IS FINNALY HANGING OUT WITH US IN MP WITHOUT HESITATION!!!! XDDD

ok, here are the reaction of the people who didnt know she came back and saw her~~



farah
*stepped into mc d with me*
farah : why is that girl keep staring at me? [tiong lols ==] she looks so familier...
me : hmm...donno, lets go talk to her...
*walks to tiong*
farah : OMG...IS THAT....?
me : yup, suprise!!!
farah : *runs and hugs livia* ==



michelle
*enters mc d*
michelle : hi everyone!
*pause*
michelle : oh, hi livia!!



=.="""""



jazel
jazel : hi!! *right side* hi!! *left side*...
*silence*
jazel : eh, OMG *turns to right* hiiii!!!!!



darsh
us : SUPRISE!!!
darsh : *stares around*
then her friend grabbed her and asked her to look at the table [she literally looked at the table mind you ==]
then when she saw livia...
*screams!!!*
OMG!!!!!!!
*Runs and hugs her *

in other words, you guys are just blur ==

I'll play for you.


:3
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 at 1:22 PM

i am starting to think holidays are boring =.=
I WANNA GO OOOUUTTT!!!
*dying of boredom in my cave*
seriously, i haven't seen my friends for like...a week?
and i cant survive like that ==
miss u guys loads!!!

and alice, i know u hate taylor swift but i LOVE her!!!
so SUE ME!! XDDD

I'll play for you.